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Listen up, I have a confession New Years is coming up…
so the other day a friend of mine and I were talking about New Year resolutions and the truth is.. I think they’re bullshit. Last year I didn’t make any and as usually my year had ups and downs (got 400€ stolen, fought depression and anxiety and 3 weeks ago I lost my home to a “natural” disaster and had to cancel xmas).
Going through all this shit, being broke most of the year I got so much more confident, after I stopped updating this blog I also stopped worrying so much about my looks and my anxiety level dropped. I became way stronger and although I’m not a 100% yet the anger and sadness that used to take over my life has died down.
I still feel lonely, sad and I worry about the future sometimes, but not making any New Year resolutions also kept me from having unrealistic goals to complete. Might work for some but not for me.
I could probably have lost a lot of weight, met somebody, not been alone when I needed to feel loved and held.
But you know what? Without even wishing for it I now feel like a stable member of society, I’m getting ready to graduate from college, I got a job with some really fun people who motivate me, and though I’m now sitting in a hotel basically homeless and I have no lips to kiss goodnight,