Today I read a message, the girl didn’t want me to post her name so I’ll just call her Anon.
I know that people might say things like oh I’m fat when they’re not. I hate that because I am. And it hurts because I dont feel beautiful in my body. It’s the worst thing to be best friend with a skinny smart, perfect bodied girl.
I wanna be pretty I want a guy too love me for me too though. Not my weight.
I’m so confused will u help me?
Your blog made me cry in a good way! Thank you SO much! People might say it alot but you helped a lot.
Let me tell you a little story. My last 2 years of high school I was in what you call a model school where 1/3 of the girls we signed up at model agencies, they where tall, pretty and I thought had so much confidence when walking down the hallways. I wasn’t anyone special and was remind of it (often). The only way people noticed me was when I did something stupid like voice my opinion a bit too loudly or talk back at my teachers. I was building up my attitude thinking it would help me socially, which it didn’t.
Now I know how it is, to feel like everyone has it better than you, that you’ll never meet a guy/girl/human being?! that just makes you feel special and wanted for both your intelligence, your body and just who you are as a person. I mean I used to cry about these kind of things not even 6 months ago, I just felt alone.
You can have as many people around as you want but sometimes you need one person to pay attention to you, to acknowledge your existence. Even the prettiest girl feels lonely, insecure or even ugly! I’ve seen it, and when you have another girl sobbing in the bathroom stall next to you because she thinks she’s not good enough and you think she’s got it all, that’s when you realize the world just isn’t balanced. Everyone has issues.
But it’s not because you feel this way, that shit just keeps pouring down on you, just because you killed a grasshopper in an other life that it won’t happen.
That you won’t meet someone who lifts your spirit without thinking of the weight that’s on your shoulders. And I’ve learned that since then.
I’m not talking about a knight in shining armour, I’m talking about anybody that is willing to overlook all that makes you insecure and chooses to see what makes you : YOU.
Don’t worry yourself with the vapid needs of society and perfect appearances, just be yourself, it’s the only way you’ll find someone who’s worth your love (any kind of love).
Sometimes, like tonight I might still wish I had someone special to just give me a hug, or just watch a movie with me. But I least I know having broken the barrier of my insecurities, I’ve opened myself to new possibilities.