I also used to binge a lot and just take any diet pill/tea I could afford when I was younger, no one helped me through it because no one noticed I had a problem. I was home schooled and being alone most of the time I’d binge till I made myself sick.
The first step to recovery is as they say realizing you have a problem, moving away from it is the hardest part a specially when you’re alone. So do try to tell someone even someone you barely know, there are many counseling groups out there to help people with unhealthy habits.
I have no miracle advice, you’re an intelligent human being and inside you know what you have to do. I hope you can slowly try to change the way you see yourself and the food that you eat.
I really hope with all my heart that you will get better, much love.