Personal update:

I have lost a bit of weight recently by mostly eating at home, though to be honest I haven’t gone to the gym at all in the past months.

Most days I travel from one side of the city to the other to get to school then work then back to school again so that gives me time to walk. And I now live on the 4th floor without an elevator so my legs are getting pretty tough.

But it also takes away my lunch break, and so quite sadly I haven’t had a proper lunch in the past 2 weeks due to lack of time. I just end up having my usual 1 meal a day which is great since I’m pretty broke, but sucks coz I know it’s just so bad for me. And a snack in the afternoon when need energy. This is not an example to follow at all!

My insomnia has gotten better I can sleep for more than 3 hours a night now sometimes up to 6 on week days and 12 on weekends. Which is awesome but no enough.

Life is good just chaotic, but hey I’m on holiday soon so yeahh!

I swear I have the weirdest appetite sometimes,

Today I ate

  • 4 figs for breakfast,
  • didn’t have lunch because I didn’t feel hungry at all,
  • and then ate 2 corn on the cob for dinner
  • drank 3L of water & had a coffee

and I feel totally fine.

Yesterday I just had dinner which consisted of a Spinach Feta pizza.

I swear sometimes the only way for me to eat a full meal is to either be totally stoned (which doesn’t happen very often now days, at all) or to drink 2 or 3 glasses of wine before.

I have to point out eating 3 meals during the day usually makes me quite sick, and that’s partially why I have a shitty metabolism.

But what the fuck, no wonder why I’ve been stuck at the same weight for ages. 

Something different..

Sorry I haven’t been updating lately but I’ve felt kind of out of time even though it’s not the case at all.  

The past few days I’ve realized that even though I’ve convinced myself I’m happy with everything going on in my life I actually feel quite miserable…

My energy is going into fulfilling the expectations of my parents (be good at school & be good at your job) and all I feel when I come back home and leave my friends is that I am just so lonely…

it’s getting really hard to be alone, it’s like I’m going crazy sometime just thinking about all the things I have to change in my life to reach this minimal level of happiness that is needed by a human being. 

Someone told me today life isn’t a sprint it’s a marathon, but it fucking feels like I’ve been jumping through hoops to get to where I am and I’m never going to get to the half time even if I keep going.

I don’t just need human interaction right now, I need someone to hold me and make me smile even for a few minutes. Because that would be so much better than how I feel every night when I’m here, right in the same spot as I’ve been for the past 3 years.

Quit my job, I can now breathe and stop pretending to be a fucking factory working robot.

slightlyhaunting:

Remember even if you need the money don’t let yourself be oppressed and devalued just for a paycheck. Losing your creativity is never worth the dollars.

Sorry I haven’t been present online at all but this ^ just happened and this past month has been full of craziness. 

Things I can’t wait to do while in France:

  • Go swimming under my secret waterfall in the woods
  • Eat crêpes bretonnes (everydayyyy)
  • Tan by the beach while I do my book design
  • See my best friend and drink Picon bière with her
  • Ride my bike along the canals
  • Take amazing pictures of the sunset
  • And most of all spend time with my family which I haven’t seen in too long.

Hi guys I just want to apologize for not posting a lot at all these days, but I’ve had a rough week and a few personal problems. I nearly only have time with school and work when I’m home I just feel like doing nothing. I really hope things will get better quick so I can start posting again and helping some people out ;(

spent nearly 5 hours walking in the woods in Niendorf with my friends today, it was a very chill and peaceful. I promise it’s the best way to get an easy workout, just walk around go explore and have an adventure!
Picture by me.

spent nearly 5 hours walking in the woods in Niendorf with my friends today, it was a very chill and peaceful. I promise it’s the best way to get an easy workout, just walk around go explore and have an adventure!

Picture by me.

Awesome when I though my day couldn’t get worst I had a panic attack and had to leave class.

It’s pretty much the first time this happened to me but I was so on edge and stressed that when I told the teacher I couldn’t speak german and he just shrugged. I felt like a total loser, just useless an idiot. Now I have a knot in my stomach, I feel like puking and crying like a baby. Really awesome.

Hey guys for those who don’t know, I love to sing, so I thought I’d share this acoustic cover I made. 

The original song is by Bob Dylan though I rediscovered it through Miley Cyrus’s cover. I hope you like it!

The picture is quite old btw, back in Argentina when I recorded my first EP in studio.

Already 3 sizes down (I can now go to H&M without looking too much for big sizes)!!

Already 3 sizes down (I can now go to H&M without looking too much for big sizes)!!